We stand on the platform of that well worn train station, watching, as our loved one takes time to embrace us, kiss us and then turn to go on a journey we can not at this time make with them. They pick up their one small bag, the one that has their life inside of it, and pause. They turn to us, sometimes with a smile, with tears or both. They try to be brave for us, as we try to be brave for them ... but inside our hearts are breaking just as theirs are, too. They turn again and step on board. We strain to catch a glimpse of them as they move along into the coach. There! we see them seated, waving and smiling. Our faces are paralyzed. We can't seem to make them do anything. We wave franticly, too. There is a sudden whistle, a lurch forward, a pause, another longer whistle. Our hearts get stretched and torn like taffy being pulled out of us as we watch part of our lives moving, rolling away.
Good bye! We'll see you soon! Take care! I love you! Be good! Let us know how you are! We love you! God, I am so sad! I will miss you so much! Peace be with you! Thank you! I love you!
No one was there as we let you go that day. How I hate that you are gone. I know the last part was so hard, but we didn't want to loose you. We did the best we could. We got to love you. We still love you.
The train station was packed that day with people we never saw. The train was full when it left at midnight. We never saw anyone else, because our sadness overwhelmed us. It's hard to see through so many tears.
Today, the sky is getting that achingly blue color, again. The wind is bringing a foretaste of cold that will touch us, again. I am thinking of you. I am missing you. I feel warm with tears which the cold wind can not cool, and never will.
I love you! I am glad you were with me as my brother. I am glad we had time together and could help each other. I know you loved me more. I am thankful for your love, loyalty and friendship. It was far too short. We will, in time, see you again when we make our passage. Until then, know that you are loved and missed completely so.
Allen Pollock, ( Owner of Gentle Breeze Farm, LLC located in Windham, Maine )
Gentle ponderings & ruminations on life and living